Fangirl or not, that's a question

Have you ever questioned yourself..........or get this alot from people around you

"Why are you doing so much for your idol?"
"Is it even worth it spending all your time and effort and money on your idol?"
"Does your idol even know about it?"
"Does he/she even know you in person?"
"Don't you think it's stupid to do all these for your idol?"
"When are you going to grow up?!"
"Don't be stupid lah."

Blah blah blah.
I'm really sick and tired of being so sick and tired of such dumbfucked questions and comments over these period of time being a so-called fangirl. Ok. As far as I am concerned, now I don't consider myself as a fangirl anymore. Because.....you gotta understand

Fan•girl (n): A girl who is kind of obsessed with a band, footballer, singer, actor/actress etc. Who also enjoys talking about hot guys and reading fanfics about her favorite celebrity. 
- There are different stages of a fangirl. They can be chill or completely crazy. 
Fan•girling (v): The reaction a fangirl has to any mention or sighting of the object of her “affection”. These reactions include: shortness of breath, fainting, highpitched noises, shaking, fierce head shaking as if in the midst of a seizure, wet panties, endless blog posts, etc.

Because you gotta understand that we changes during different stages in life. I am no exception at all.
Well, to me, such comments are really redundant and arguments are invalid. And if you were to ask me, I really don't think that I have been doing a lot for Tosh yet. I've always felt that I can do much more and so much better for him as his admin.

Then I realized that I have forgotten the fact that nobody is perfect......
Perhaps I should stop giving myself so much stress and such high expectations.


Ahh whatever, gotta go makan now! bye.

With love,
Adeline

Neglect

Shucks.

I haven't been writing for such a long time. I have already lost track of the events that happened during this period of time. So, I'm not updating those shit.

I have been so busy with my new job and intoshicated that I have been neglecting my friends; I am saying those really good friends; those that we used to meet up very often. I'm really apologetic.

I feel that there's a need for me to apologize to my dear friend, Queenie once again for not being able to attend her birthday celebration earlier back on 30th April. Yes, I kinda chose Tosh event over her birthday celebration. I know, there're people who are unhappy about it but honestly, stand in my shoes and think about it just a little.

I hate explaining myself over and over again. I hate being questioned for my own decisions. I hate when people expect me to do things the way they want me to, and expect me to live the life they want me to.

Eventually, I gave up. Now, I give no fucks to how people think and say about me because life is tough enough, why should I make it worse?

For the last time, I am gonna say this..

Shut the fuck up if you don't know anything. Shut the fuck up if you don't know how much struggle and thoughts before I came to this decision.

And...

Don't fucking tell me "If it was me, I will definitely choose my friend over idol blah blah blah." You already said, IF IT WAS YOU. Look, that's you. Not me. I just don't like this shit; the way y'all talk to me.

Ok nuff said.

Hopefully after I finish my secret mission project for my dearest limpeh, I will be able to meet up with my girls and let's ketchupppppppppppppp :')

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